Trapped by my own mind When life became unkind I was broken inside Nothing in my life was right My world was falling apart Humanity continued to rip my heart I had no where to run Got to pull a trigger in this gun For time couldn’t heal my pain Wounds was all I could gain Rapped by my own fears Drowning in my own tears Scotch by expectations Wrinkled was the situation A life in darkness I remained in my own nest Being alive felt like a crime Wrinkle was my time
When the night falls upon us And most souls lurks their snore I lay awake in my sleep Tossing and turning every second Like I have bugs in my bed The demons of the night wrestle my soul And my mind drowning in thoughts While my hearts breaking apart Reminiscing about my struggles Till my body shut still Feeling numb yet still in pain Tears falling like rainfall Why, filled my mind with anger Asleep is God upon me While the devil troubles my sorrow Depression took away my sleep Anxiety introduced me to Insomnia Awake I become during the night Exhausting my life become each day.
Twinkling star beneath my feet Yet my sky is shaded black Take me high above the moon Let me cry out like a wolf Fill my soul just like the night Let me rest without a scare Hold me tight, be my demon Free my mind and let me smile.
Help me, I am barely alive Roaming the dark streets like a thug Counting the stars from up above Seeking a way to live my life Or just a hand to help me up Searching for a soul to better my life Or a word to lie that I am loved Instead of voices screaming I should die Breaking my soul and wrecking my heart Confusing my purpose and ruining my smile Banished is how I feel inside With no one around to tell me otherwise But the scars of the wounds I carry, That hurts more than life itself So I pled for you to feel my pain Numb the misery inside Help me heal or take away my life For I am barely alive
I took a leap of faith And dried my tears I looked beyond the pain And consoled my sorrows I forgave my choices And celebrated my mistakes I held my self up And let go of my regrets I moved on from the past And planned my future I learned to love myself And I found true love But all of that couldn’t heal my scars And my wounds got worser For trouble never ends.
I am lost The darkness surrounds me It’s getting so cold I’m all alone With no one to hold My world is so empty All what’s left is pain No sunshine to light up my way Just never ending rain I drown in tears My heart is crying No one seems to notice My soul is dying.
Widows vibrated to the cold breeze Freezing the walls till they sweat I felt my heart on my chest As I held you near with passion Sensed a smell so different all of a sudden A scent I can’t recognize yet familiar So I asked innocently for conformation Thats When you turned your back on me with anger But the scent of the girl brought fear Of lose and betrayal Till I ran back to the past for comfort His words brought me joy and security A long lost spark that I fail to resist But his voice I recognized as pain Now I’m back to square one A place I never wanted to be Yet I seem to always be Guess this is where I belong Back to the past.