Trapped by my own mind When life became unkind I was broken inside Nothing in my life was right My world was falling apart Humanity continued to rip my heart I had no where to run Got to pull a trigger in this gun For time couldn’t heal my pain Wounds was all I could gain Rapped by my own fears Drowning in my own tears Scotch by expectations Wrinkled was the situation A life in darkness I remained in my own nest Being alive felt like a crime Wrinkle was my time
I took a leap of faith And dried my tears I looked beyond the pain And consoled my sorrows I forgave my choices And celebrated my mistakes I held my self up And let go of my regrets I moved on from the past And planned my future I learned to love myself And I found true love But all of that couldn’t heal my scars And my wounds got worser For trouble never ends.
I am lost The darkness surrounds me It’s getting so cold I’m all alone With no one to hold My world is so empty All what’s left is pain No sunshine to light up my way Just never ending rain I drown in tears My heart is crying No one seems to notice My soul is dying.
When the dark clouds caved in And darkness was all I could see I took a sip on a strong drink Paraffin never tasted better Paralyzed is what it did to me Yet I could still breathe with pain. I cried my eyes out Till overdosing became my comfort Pills only made me high And numb was all I became. With no tears to cry out I got on my knees and prayed Screamed out, ‘Why can’t I just die!’ That’s when I saw a dead rat Which gave me an idea to consume poison Yet the outcome was very brutal And pain in my stomach was all I felt. So I gave up and cut my wrist Till I bleed out a lot of blood Got on concious for 12 hours I woke up feeling crazy Didn’t feel like myself. So tired of life yet can’t get away With no choice, I tried the rope The tighter the grip, numb my throat And made my face purple and swollen Till I fart and pooped on my pants Stinking the whole house Enabling someone to come rescue Blanked out, I woke up in a hospital With everyone around me Curiously asking, ‘Why do you seek death?’ And the doctor telling me I’m selfish He said, ‘Death don’t even want you.’ I closed my eyes in tears Feeling the pain in my heart, face, stomach, body Everything hurts including breathing Reality never been this cruel. I needed death more than ever But just like everything and everyone Death denied me too.
The colours of love Shines deep in your eyes The diamond in the sky Flourish through your heart Red was a promise But it always made me cry So you painted the sky blue For me to let go of my baggage up high. Green was the colour of your spirit Filled with the goodness of life But your pain, you couldn’t hide Yellow led me through your soul But it sucks I couldn’t heal your sorrow Yet you still held me in the dark Somehow black became the colour of our love It brought us peace and underatanding Pink became our commitment, To each other’s downfall. Till we danced to the lime rhythm And white filled our floor That’s when you said, ‘I owe you forever’ And thats when i said, ‘Forever is colourless’ You said, ‘Forget the colour because love is blurry’ Guess thats why we’re floating on the clouds now Making vows with our bodies And peace to our imperfections Love is indeed color blind And it is up to up to fill it up with colours Shade every part with truth of relations Colourless that’s the colour of love.
I lay dead on the floor When darkness filled my skies And pain come like rain Couldn’t understand the void inside It trembled in the worst moment Crushing my vains like a venom And slowing hurting my soul Til I felt nothing but cold I screamed out, LORD Till my voice dried out And my strength warn-out So cold and half dead I hoped for someone to help And no one came for days Yet suddenly I felt warmth A blanket on top of me The demons came for me They heard my cry and pain And I knew, that we’re never alone.
Twinkle of the dark Lurks deep in my heart To the silent cry That wakes the void inside A pain, I can not numb Troubles my lungs Sometimes I can not breath When anxiety chock me up And depression blocks my mind Why can’t the night be so kind And be filled with peace But instead I am breaking down Burying my heart in the mud And cuting my wrist up Trying to escape The twinkle of the night.