To Love…

To love means to be pure
Having the center to be like nature
Or having the Courage like water
Just having a drive like peace

To love means to be selfless
Giving without acknowledgement
Caring with no expectations
Breaking with no concern

To love means to be a fool
In the eyes of the beloved
Never bothered by their wrongs
And accepting their excuses

To love means to forgive
The one that breaks your heart
The reflection infront of you
The circumstance of every pain

To love means to be strong
When love hurts like hell
And the one you love,
Doesn’t love you at all

To love means to be broken
Loving with every and all the pieces
And to cherish love like it’s God
And never giving up on love

To Love Means To Love With A Pure Broken Heart

©Kitty Minaj

Words Vs Feelings

I said I am not going to cry
With tears in my eyes
Flawing hard like someone died
It felt like my heart did

I said he is not worth it
Yet I need him more
So how do I let it go
It felt like I crashed my soul

I said it’s okay,It’ll pass
But holding on to him feels right
Or am I lying to myself
It felt like I was a fool

I said no more Relationships
But I need love so bad
Yet I keep messing up
It felt like I’ll never be loved.

©Kitty Minaj

When The Warmth Fade Away

When the warmth fade away
And there is no reason to stay
Even when he does good
Can’t help but let go of the loop
For once you truly understand your worth
For you’ve been giving your all
For Someone that’s capable of letting you fall
After showing so much love and passion
Yet lies at every occasion
Making you feel stupid and dumb
Forgetting that there will come a time
When you finally open your eyes
And wipe the tears of all your cries
And then realize…
That love is like a mortal
Imperfect and fragile
A battle field I failed to win
Heartbreak I could have seen
Yet charm fooled my soul
Til in your arms I felt so cold
And mouth left with no words to say

As your warmth fade away.

©Kitty Minaj

Time To Let Go

It’s time to grow up
I’ve been messed up a lot
For I refused to let you go
Was afraid to be left alone

But you’ve played with my mind
While wounding my heart
And breaking my trust
Now I am scared to love

I’ve watched you walk out
Came back and fuck me around
Your spear of lust, hurts so much
And your kisses left me bruised

I found my heart in your trash
Why would you make me feel this worthless
How could I let you mistreat my love
Guess it’s time to let you go now.

©Kitty Minaj

Never Letting Go

Why do I stay when I want to go?
Is it because I have hope?
Or maybe it is because I don’t want to be alone.
I stay and all I do is complain.
Complain that I might be going insane.
Insane of the thought that it might be my fault.
But who is to blame?
Is it me or is it him?
Neither one of us will go.
Although we know we must go,
All we do is ignore the pain
Of all the words we exchange.
I know I must go, but I don’t know.
If I go, I will be alone.
But why do I stay?
Only to hear him say,
“You’re to blame for all my unhappiness and pain.”
I know I’m not to blame for the choices he has made.
So I stay, hoping he will grow,
Grow in love and be consoled knowing I will never go.

It Hurts Like Hell

It hurts…

When it hurts like hell
I tried to overdose
But no amount of medicine,
Can numb the pain inside
Instead it makes you feel worse.

When it hurts like hell
I tried to seek for help
But no human,
Can take away the misery
Instead they break you badly.

When it hurts like hell
I ran to him
But not even love,
Can heal the wounds in your sorrow
Instead it lesion even more.

When it hurts like hell
I killed myself
But not even death,
Can handle my heavy baggage
Instead it denied my soul.

When it hurts like hell
I finally gave up
For hell seem even better
Because this nightmare is curse too
And can’t escape from yourself

I let it hurt like hell

Worst Girlfriend

Feel like the worst girlfriend
With all this pain in my heart
Preventing me to feel loved

Feel like the worst girlfriend
With depression in my mind
Preventing me to let go

Feel like the worst girlfriend
With anxiety consuming my breath
Preventing me to live my life

Feel like the worst girlfriend
With all the hurt in my soul
Preventing me to trust the one I love

Feel like the worst girlfriend
With all the abandonment in my life
Preventing me to believe his not here to stay

Feel like the worst girlfriend
With all the insecurities from my past
Provoking me to be territorial

Feel like the worst girlfriend
Maybe because I know his got no love
Playing me is what he seem to be doing

Feel like the worst girlfriend
For I LOVE HIM so much
He makes me happy and sad, it just hurt.

©Kitty Minaj

Run Back To Past

Widows vibrated to the cold breeze
Freezing the walls till they sweat
I felt my heart on my chest
As I held you near with passion
Sensed a smell so different all of a sudden
A scent I can’t recognize yet familiar
So I asked innocently for conformation
Thats When you turned your back on me with anger
But the scent of the girl brought fear
Of lose and betrayal
Till I ran back to the past for comfort
His words brought me joy and security
A long lost spark that I fail to resist
But his voice I recognized as pain
Now I’m back to square one
A place I never wanted to be
Yet I seem to always be
Guess this is where I belong
Back to the past.

©Kitty Minaj

White Morning

I lay awoke to the white morning
With tears flowing like cloudy sky
Heart breaking so loud like thunder
I felt my body melting away
And my soul turning into ashes
My spirit dematerialize
My memory turned into pain
And you faded away like magic
The morning sun ray stole your smile
The ray light encouraged my depression
And it reminded me that pain is real
Even when love is there to take care
It cannot heal the wounds deep inside
So I held my breathe till forever
To die instantly on the white morning.

©Kitty Minaj

The Antonym Of Love

Your voice broke my shell,
I couldn’t hide
Touch melted my sorrow,
I couldn’t cry
Your passion destroyed my soul,
I couldn’t write
Your kiss removed my mask,
I couldn’t smile
Your promises brough the sun,
I couldn’t see
Nose sniffed away my pain,
I couldn’t feel
Your lies consumed my brain,
I couldn’t trust
For your eyes showed me LOVE,
I couldn’t keep.

©Kitty Minaj