Depression · suicide note

I’ll Never Be Okay

I walk around with a wounded mind Over-analyzing the smallest task And sacrificing my purest heart To a world of cruelest doom Misunderstood by my own people Broken by the one I love most And hurt by life itself Abandon by my greatest demons Left alone with just pain and scars The devil is no… Continue reading I’ll Never Be Okay

Depression · suicide note

I’m Not Going To Cry…

I'm not going to cry I deserved it, I deserved it The endless pain and misery Who am I to be free? I'm not going to cry I caused it, I caused it The hatred and the loneliness Who am I to be loved? I'm not going to cry I forced it,I forced it To… Continue reading I’m Not Going To Cry…

Depression · Mental Health

Birthday Dilemma

Dear Birthday I can see the candlesBut I am not ready to age My life's been out of touchA series of disappointments and painA movie of mental health strugglesA battle to live vs to die A jungle of endless sorrows,A birthday is a day for happiness How can I be happy when my world's on… Continue reading Birthday Dilemma

Depression · Mental Health

Migraine

Like a devil torturing my skull With a hammer banging my left side Feeling every pain run through my head Causing the blurriness of my eyes And the tasteless of my tongue Enabled the feeling of vomiting My face felt so numb Yet the discomfort of my tears couldn't be ignored When my heart broke… Continue reading Migraine

Depression · Mental Health

Falling Apart

I woke up with a smile Even though I couldn't breath I managed to get up When my chest was weighing on me The bath tub filled up with tears Because I couldn't hold back the pain The stranger in the mirror reflecting on me Couldn't comfort my grieving soul When the mask trembled down… Continue reading Falling Apart

Depression · Mental Health

June Stress

Dear June,I woke up with my head blocked outAnd my eyes swollen from tearsMy heart worn out from all the painBlood boiling cold numbing my skinEnabling all the emotions backThe questions of 'what if?' But mostly 'why?'Crumble deep inside my bonesWith the fear of the futureLurking in the depth of my spineThe pain of tomorrow… Continue reading June Stress

Depression · Mental Health · suicide note

Merge Me, May

I am falling apart With these scars in my heart And my knees on the ground My head smashed on the floor Trying to understand my flaws Yet struggling to subtain my breath Was I really meant to be alive? When death mock me and life hurt me How do I really numb the pain?… Continue reading Merge Me, May

Depression

BOOK SALE

How To Smile When You're Dying Inside We all have that one day, were you can not even if you try, share a smile. A day so blurry that we struggle to face, struggle to avoid and it lurks in deep that it kills the only muscle that brightens a day. So what do you… Continue reading BOOK SALE

Depression

Best Friend

Like a lightning ray clamming from afarI wished for a shooting starA wish that could redeem my heartA soul that could save my lifeAn extra breath that could warm my skinA truest life that consume my lonelinessBut like a star it's out of my reachA distant faith I longed to have But a cursed soul I… Continue reading Best Friend

Depression · Mental Health · suicide note

Broken Anxiety

I wanted to write my heart out But my watery eyes couldn't see a thing My shakey hands couldn't hold a pen And my breaking heart couldn't express it's self. All I could do, is cry dead to a selfish life As I lay down on the cold hands of the floor Feeling the aching… Continue reading Broken Anxiety