Like a devil torturing my skull With a hammer banging my left side Feeling every pain run through my head Causing the blurriness of my eyes And the tasteless of my tongue Enabled the feeling of vomiting My face felt so numb Yet the discomfort of my tears couldn’t be ignored When my heart broke apart Because of the sickness that’s always around For a moment anxiety refused to let me be And life’s unfairness put me to stress And today I woke up with migraine The most painful feeling of them all I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy For in that moment death is all you think of
I woke up with a smile Even though I couldn’t breath I managed to get up When my chest was weighing on me The bath tub filled up with tears Because I couldn’t hold back the pain The stranger in the mirror reflecting on me Couldn’t comfort my grieving soul When the mask trembled down I couldn’t share a smile For what lurks deep inside Is breaking me apart And knowing that I can’t fix it Makes my whole life a misery So I went back to sleep And watch my days turned into nights With no one asking if I am alright Had to tell myself that it’s okay Alone and depress I’ll always be This is a life I was meant to live But I can’t help falling apart
Dear June, I woke up with my head blocked out And my eyes swollen from tears My heart worn out from all the pain Blood boiling cold numbing my skin Enabling all the emotions back The questions of 'what if?' But mostly 'why?' Crumble deep inside my bones With the fear of the future Lurking in the depth of my spine The pain of tomorrow being worse than today Seemed to be the stress I always face, But cannot seem to disappear in my vains For time makes every situation complicated And stress seem to only be multiple As I begged for freedom From thinking of all my pain And June stress to just go away.
I am falling apart With these scars in my heart And my knees on the ground My head smashed on the floor Trying to understand my flaws Yet struggling to subtain my breath Was I really meant to be alive? When death mock me and life hurt me How do I really numb the pain? Of yesterday that was stolen by wounds And tomorrow that is taken by fear In this soul I can not run For there is no soul that could save me Therefore my sorrow weights on me Nothing I could do for tears burns me up So I seek for you, May To merge and restore what’s broken inside And give me a purpose to get off the couch And smile for the sun that shines even in winter For no matter how dead I feel inside
We all have that one day, were you can not even if you try, share a smile. A day so blurry that we struggle to face, struggle to avoid and it lurks in deep that it kills the only muscle that brightens a day. So what do you do when a day blurs in your eyes and everything around you explores with no sound but hurts in your heart and you can not seem to share a smile?
Like a lightning ray clamming from afar I wished for a shooting star A wish that could redeem my heart A soul that could save my life An extra breath that could warm my skin A truest life that consume my loneliness But like a star it’s out of my reach A distant faith I longed to have But a cursed soul I remain alone With no smile to share the scars No laughter to endorse the silence Enchanted a broken love it is Tears rejoiced my twisted faith Walls filled my unspoken words Pain took over my darkest world Demons became my remedy A best friend I longed to have Is a shadow that left my sight.
I wanted to write my heart out But my watery eyes couldn’t see a thing My shakey hands couldn’t hold a pen And my breaking heart couldn’t express it’s self. All I could do, is cry dead to a selfish life As I lay down on the cold hands of the floor Feeling the aching twitch of my veins And the trembling pain of my body As I try to acknowledge my broken soul
Like a memory my heart became It was never the same Born with so much scars in my faith Tears were all I could share in life Love was always hidden in my view Yet it manage to break me apart I grew stronger in time But in time I become weaker My soul couldn’t bare all the wounds And my sorrow couldn’t carry the baggage Tried so hard to heal this pain But a curse runs in my veins It took away my passion and dreams Left me with no one to run too But a darkness I couldn’t face Yet it surrounds me with fear This life is hard to live My heart hurts, it’s hard to breathe Like fire burning inside Feels like I could rip it apart Who on earth can heal this heart?