Category: love

Ice Scream Pain Scream
Mental Health · Poetry

Ice Scream Pain Scream

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Ice Scream Pain Scream
My soul cried for ice cream
When pain filled my chest
Seems like I can’t get a rest

Ice scream Pain scream
My heart bleed for ice cream
Where do I go when I’m broken
All that is left is words that are unspoken

Ice scream Pain scream
My life pled for ice cream
For in these chains I can’t be free
Why can’t struggles let me be

Ice scream Pain Scream
My love broke for ice cream
When I finally decide to let go
Of all the traumas that hurt me so

Ice scream Pain scream
My scream bust for ice scream
Oh, help me I’m hopeless please
Ice cream heal my mental disease

©Kitty Minaj

Insidious
Mental Health · Poetry

Insidious

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Insidious I must be serious
For why dead never come, I am curious
Now attempting suicide is ridiculous
For life for me is hideous
It is full of pain not mysterious
When will I be free, I am furious
They tell me to be more religious
Being hurting for so long,God you not there it’s obvious
The feeling of loneliness is enormous
As I accept my faith like it’s delicious
Looking at everyone and feeling jealous
As they living their life that is precious
While I am depressed and anxious
Feeling dead but conscious
And the thought of tomorrow makes me nervous
So I lay awake and be Insidious

©Kitty Minaj

Loved In October
love · self love

Loved In October

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When the rain poured, it rained hard
Suddenly stuck is what you become 
For it's hard to hear a soul when thunder strikes loud 
And you can't feel nobody when darkness curve in
It's easier to feel alone when all hope is lost
But no matter how bad the rain is, it's also good
It wash away the pain, and fill you with faith
Faith that love is there but scared 
It hides away waiting for the storm to fade
Waiting for the right moment to endure
Waiting for October to start raining,
We are loved and mostly by an unknown 
Remember that when pain hit your soul
You are loved in this October.
Have Faith in love

©Kitty Minaj
I’ll Never Be Okay
Depression · suicide note

I’ll Never Be Okay

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I walk around with a wounded mind
Over-analyzing the smallest task
And sacrificing my purest heart
To a world of cruelest doom
Misunderstood by my own people
Broken by the one I love most
And hurt by life itself
Abandon by my greatest demons
Left alone with just pain and scars
The devil is no where to be found
When darkness filled my soul
Who can I be when I’m broken?
Where can I run when I’m alone?
How do I breath in the dark?
What happened to love being a savor?
Is love a lie?
Where hope is all lost
And no direction to move forward
Knowing I’ll never be okay
Do I accepting my faith
Or keep hurting?

©Kitty Minaj

I Gave You All Of Me
love

I Gave You All Of Me

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I gave you all of me
My endless time of infinity
When you promised me forever
Yet all you gave was your excuses

I gave you all of me
My innocence of pure love
When you promised no harm
Yet all you gave was pain

I gave you all of me
The warmth of my being
When you promised to care
Yet all you gave was distance

I gave you all of me
My purest heart of love
When you promised to love me
Yet all you gave was lies

I gave you all of me
All that I am and wish to be
When all you do is break me apart
And all you gave was empty promises

©Kitty Minaj

Sad September
self love

Sad September

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The morning rose like a dream
When sad September bloomed in a dark
With a twinkle of positivity 
A hope of the most wounded soul 
He broke my heart, I shed a smile
She distant herself, I loved the loneliness 
I felt so much pain, I rejoice the hurt
I lost myself, and saw my strength
Forever I shall be this broken
And forever I shall be all alone
But in Sad September, I am okay
I am not sad, for I am strong
I am not sad, for I am savage 
I can't be bend down or demolish
I am mental unstable but powerful
More powerful when I am sad,
Crying a river yet watering my garden
So in this sad September,
I am going to live my life...normal
Happily but alone. 
For I love being on my own. 

©Kitty Minaj
I’m Not Going To Cry…
Depression · suicide note

I’m Not Going To Cry…

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I’m not going to cry
I deserved it, I deserved it
The endless pain and misery
Who am I to be free?

I’m not going to cry
I caused it, I caused it
The hatred and the loneliness
Who am I to be loved?

I’m not going to cry
I forced it,I forced it
To live in sadness and fear
Who am I to be happy?

I’m not going to cry
I earned it, earned it
The depression and the vicious sicknesses
Who am I to be well?

I am not going to cry
I’ll end it, I’ll end it
My life with pills and poison
Who am I to be alive?

©Kitty Minaj

Birthday Dilemma
Depression · Mental Health

Birthday Dilemma

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Dear Birthday 
I can see the candles
But I am not ready to age 
My life's been out of touch
A series of disappointments and pain
A movie of mental health struggles
A battle to live vs to die 
A jungle of endless sorrows,
A birthday is a day for happiness 
How can I be happy when my world's on fire
How do I pretend when trauma hurts,
And all my dreams haunts my reality
Who am I to be free
And who am I to be celebrated
I just don't want to see tomorrow
I am sorry Birthday
I am not ready to face another year of misery.

©Kitty Minaj
Oh My August
Poetry · Writing

Oh My August

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Oh my August
Rise up from the dust
Clear the dark skies
And hear all my cries

Oh my August
Look around, I am rust
Rescue me and shine my life
Steal away the internal strife

Oh my August 
Who can I trust?
When I am in pain and hurt
For the world is immune to my shout or blurt

Oh my August 
Unchain me from this lust
Restore the girl I was
That loved herself so much


©Kitty Minaj
Migraine
Depression · Mental Health

Migraine

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Like a devil torturing my skull
With a hammer banging my left side
Feeling every pain run through my head
Causing the blurriness of my eyes
And the tasteless of my tongue
Enabled the feeling of vomiting
My face felt so numb
Yet the discomfort of my tears couldn’t be ignored
When my heart broke apart
Because of the sickness that’s always around
For a moment anxiety refused to let me be
And life’s unfairness put me to stress
And today I woke up with migraine
The most painful feeling of them all
I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy
For in that moment death is all you think of

©Kitty Minaj