How Do I Love Me?
I asked, looking at the reflation of a broken girl
Her eyes blood red
She doesn’t want to be alive
How do I love me?
When I can’t stop the overflowing tears
That comes like a heavy rain
Even when I am very happy
How do I love me?
With all this pain in my chest
And anxiety choking my neck
While depression destroys my brain
How do I love me?
With all the abuses from my past
And voices telling me I am not enough
I’ll never make it alive
How do I love me?
When everytime I wake up with a smile
They throw stones of hate at me
Complaining that I act better than them
How do I love me?
With all the suicidal attempts
Selfishly praying to die
Trying to escape reality
How do I love me?
When you don’t even love me
Hurting me with your lust
And pushing me away with you lie
How do I love me?
When I feel so alone
With no where to hide nor run
And no one to call or talk too
Truth is I do love me?
As me, broken and bruised
Alone and cold with passion
Unloved but alive yet dead inside.
©Kitty Minaj
